You seem to say
but my sister tells me I am not aloud to..
quite often. If your serious about going further with Jehovahs witnesses, then you'd better get used to hearing that. As Murray Smith said, many of us were JWs for 20,30, 40 years. We'll be happy to share our experiences with you, but then its your decision in the end, and everyone here will respect that.
Good luck ( oh, am I allowed to say that?)
jlp.